Over the last couple of days I've felt a sense of unease. My subconscious is aware of it too -- I've been having weird dreams that left me waking up in a poor mood. As I tried to identify the problem I thought about several matters, and after 2-3 days I've come to some replies.
Walk away from the crutches, even if its your Very Best friend
I am fortunate enough to have a great companion in San Diego. But, it is crucial to know when you have to walk your path. Often times, we lean on the shoulders of others, and in the process, forget to learn that which we should learn how to do ourselves. By way of example, I'm constantly hanging out together with him, and we play video games. This is great fun, but lately after our LA trip I've felt a sense of waste after playing matches. So I uninstalled my Heroes of the Storm bnet account and I have far more spare time in my hands. So the lesson is, find out when you need to come up with your strength, and also have the courage to walk away from your best friend. He/she will understand, that you will need the time to yourself to create inner strength.
I've also learned that my daytime pick up abilities are much better, and that I tend to do better in my. Sometimes, you have to go out there and watch the world on your own, instead of resenting others for"holding back you", when in fact, you're the one which's doing it!
Seeing the silver lining in everything
As a kid, I used to think that if I'm studying the piano in the afternoon, all the other children are out there playing at the golden sunset! No! I felt a sense of loss! Yet, now, I'm grateful on a few nights when I could just be in the office and work to my heart's content. No family, no friends bugging me, nothing. Only me and my work. Occasionally I might feel like that is lonely and perhaps it is, but that is the way it is for now, and I have learned to see it as a boon, I get to hangout with my friends when I need to, and have my own time without being stressed by work or personal obligations.
Being cool without"trying"
I have leverage the ability to be present thanks to Ekhart Tolle and I have discovered that when I am relaxed and unstressedI have an open vibe. People talk to me personally. "What's that you're purchasing?" "Hey this elevator is slow huh?" I believe that on weekdays, since many individuals are stressed, an unstressed, open energy translates well in contrast to all the pent up energy that we see everyday. I'm lucky enough to have financial freedom at this stage in my life, jak zagadać do dziewczyny przy barze and I will continue to station a chill, open vibe, even if I'm working hard on the job.
Presence, and internal love
Being"chill" also means non-judgement. When we judge other people, in certain ways we are also dealing with our own demons. Live and let live. Your presence of light is sufficient -- which alone could sustain you and put in love to the entire world. Occasionally our ego gets in the way, and blinds us out of the spark and magnificent of what's there to start with.
Strive for the finest, judgement free of others
I used to judge others or"despise on them" when they're useless to my objectives. I realized now this is the incorrect way to look at the entire world. Everyone is on their own journey. In many ways, my negativity towards them was actually at myself -- at my inability to make things work. I must have sought out help sooner, or acknowledged that I needed to meet new people, instead of resenting my pals. You can not always change someone, however you could always adore them.
It is ok to be an asshole, sometimes our mistakes teach us how to arrive at the Ideal solution
In order for me to "find peace".
Or reach a stage of acceptance, I had to go through pain. The pain helps you get to a point (hopefully) of throwing off the baggage of their self.
Intimate relationships, savor all of the life has to offer. Drink from the fountain
While I used to select the hottest women, I want the deepest relationships in all areas of my life. Am I drawn to beautiful ladies? Absolutely. However, my fascination now is more than only a physical one. I find myself losing charm for shallow beauty, and much more in tune with inner beauty.
I'm still drawn sexually to shallow beauty, but in terms of my relationships and an-ongoing kind of scenario, I find myself valuing a gorgeous girl with great inner qualities too.